Gotta know when to hold em...

You also have to know when it's good to pack your pens, post-it notes, and steno pads and hit the road.  The writing is on the wall and I need to take heed. Funny though, I've never been this indecisive about searching for employment; nor have I ever been this worried (my lack of emergency fund shows that).  Of course, our economy hasn't sucked this bad ever in my lifespan.

I can't sit here much longer and feign surprise when the news reports possible layoffs at my university even before our upcoming Town Hall meetings. Nor can I sit here and think that my job is secure, regardless of what my boss and Administrator tell me. There is no such thing as job security any longer (hard for my parents to believe). So I am taking the plunge and updating my Monster.com profile as well as considering a Linkedn profile. Although, I should probably take this as a sign to do what I think may be right for me - professional organizer and freelance assistant. For some odd reason, I keep thinking having a few clients and not being tied to a desk not located in my house is the thing for me.

And then I think...I need a paycheck. I have bills to pay, mortgage to cover, car note, and of course shopping. I think, I really don't want to bust  my tail (I'm getting too old for the 24hr access assistant). And back to the indecision - I want to actually work vs. websurf daily. I want to do more than just answer the phone and get diet cokes all day. I want to manage projects and put my stamp on something signficant vs. writing letters of recommendation for faculty members.  And then I'm back to, but I like not working hard and the thought of going to grad school without the worries of major work deadlines.

What to do, what to do...